The most common compliment that I receive after maybe only telling a fraction of my story is ‘ You are so positive for what you have gone through and that’s a rare thing. ‘ Thank you. I hear it. I receive it. I understand it. But I cannot help but wonder if I am on a pedestal from time to time and if the expectation is that I am positive a hundred percent of my days, weeks, months,years. When in all reality, I am equal parts pessimist and optimist. I like to think that I think about all possibilities and probabilities of whatever the life issue is at hand.
Let’s recap a little: 1) I am almost twenty nine year old woman with my immune system attacking itself until there is pain and inflammation in my body. So even if there is a smile on my face and the inflammation within my body is the best it has ever been, there is something possibly hurting inside of me somewhere 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. 2) Due to accidents and my funky immune system- I am in a wheelchair. And with that comes the possibility of facing discrimination in some way on a possible daily basis, and when you are Disabled, Discrimination can be accidental or intentional.
Sounds exhausting, right? Those two examples are just the tip of the iceberg really but they are examples of the truth. It’s not all butterflies and rainbows. It’s sometimes stress. It’s sometimes tears that you keep to yourself because you hate crying in front of other people. It’s years of bottled up anger and anxiety. What for? For all of the years social injustices you have gone through or your physical self being in harms way again and again. It leaves wear and tear on your heart and mind no matter how positive you are. However, if you are anything like me, you take a breath, find your center, and just live to the best of your ability no matter what’s going on.
So? At this point ,inquiring minds probably want to know, are things currently on the positive side for Miss Laura? Miss Laura’s response, ” You know in all honesty, this has been a stressful year for my family and I but things are starting to look up. And with the exception of one missing thing, and those that know me or this blog best will know what that one thing is, I am happy. I am almost twenty nine and feeling fine. ” And with that I end this post, stay positive folks, or don’t. Just do what suits you best.